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It's funny how something small can trigger some very unpleasant memories, memories that still have the power to really upset you, I was watching TV last week, when someone mentioned that they'd given up on being a painter and that if they had more time they'd really like to get back to it.

Right away it was suddenly 1981 and I was in my first year of college and one of the subjects I was doing was Art, I can tell you right now that I had NO illusions that I was a good artist, or even a mediocre one, in fact I was pretty terrible and I knew it, but you see the thing was that I loved doing it, I loved drawing, I loved painting, I loved collage, I loved lino art, I loved it all, I didn't care that I was incredibly bad at it, I was having a great time and I really looked forward to my art lessons.

And I had a great teacher whose philosophy was that art was all about enjoying it, doing something you liked, I aced the historical portion of Art, all the assignments about various painters and styles, I was content with getting a pass for effort and not for actual talent, because to be honest I didn't have any, not compared to some of the people in my class who were genuinely and massively talented.

That was fine and dandy until in the middle of the second term my original art teacher suddenly left and my class ended up with Mr Jackson, the other art teacher. Mr Jackson was an "artist" and unless you actually had talent he was of the opinion that you didn't belong in Art, he took great delight in belittling those in the class who in his opinion had no right to be in an Art class.

As I said I was under no false impression that I could paint, we were doing water colours that term and even though watercolours are some of the most forgiving of the medium- the most positive thing that could be said about my watercolour was that I had chosen nice colours, but you know what I had a great time with it, I thoroughly enjoyed doing it and to me that was the most important thing.

Until Mr Jackson took my poor little watercolour and ripped it and me to shreds in front of the entire class, he attacked my style, or lack of it, my lack of anything remotely resembling artistic talent or merit, and my sheer temerity in even being in Art class, his sychophants thought it was funny and laughed, the rest of the class were embarassed for me, and me, well I was sitting there trying not to cry (I was only 16 at the time) and wishing that the floor would open up and swallow me.

I never did another art piece that entire year at college, I managed to pass on my theoretical assignments and I never spoke to Mr Jackson again unless I really had to, I didn't understand his motive for calling me out in class then and I still don't understand it now.

All I know is that he took something I loved doing, even though I wasn't very good at it and he ruined it for me.

So we're back to last week and this thing on TV and I happened to mention to Paul that I loved painting, even though I sucked at and that I really enjoyed watercolours and in the middle of this I realise that I am almost in tears explaining how Mr Jackson ridiculed me in front of the whole class, something I hadn't even thought of in almost 30 years still had the power to affect me so strongly now.

So you know what Mr Jackson wherever you are, I send you a belated FUCK YOU and as soon as this semester is over I am going to invest in a few canvases and some watercolours and I am going to paint, probably very badly, but I AM going to paint.


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Jun. 30th, 2010 11:18 pm
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Mama's Arms
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Jun. 30th, 2010 11:18 pm
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Mama's Arms
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Sleeping Satellite
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and when we shoot for stars
what a giant step
have we got what it takes
to carry the weight of this concept
or pass it by like a shot in the dark

Sleeping Satellite:Tamsin Archer
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Sleeping Satellite
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and when we shoot for stars
what a giant step
have we got what it takes
to carry the weight of this concept
or pass it by like a shot in the dark

Sleeping Satellite:Tamsin Archer

Arty ar ar

Jul. 7th, 2008 04:39 pm
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Homeward Bound
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"And every strangers face I see reminds me that I long to be Homeward bound. I wish I was Homeward bound, Home, where my thoughts escaping, Home, where my musics playing, Home, where my love lies waiting silently for me"

(c)lyrics Paul Simon


Arty ar ar

Jul. 7th, 2008 04:39 pm
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Homeward Bound
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"And every strangers face I see reminds me that I long to be Homeward bound. I wish I was Homeward bound, Home, where my thoughts escaping, Home, where my musics playing, Home, where my love lies waiting silently for me"

(c)lyrics Paul Simon


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Butterfly kisses
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Butterfly kisses
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Planets
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Another spacescape, the planets were done entirely in Poser, I added the filters and star brushes in postwork in Photoshop.


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Planets
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Another spacescape, the planets were done entirely in Poser, I added the filters and star brushes in postwork in Photoshop.


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Dreaming Of Home
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Trying something new, made in Poser and finished in PS.. worked well I think.

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