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boodieWell I guess it was bound to happen, but I always hoped that it wouldn't, Dad has finally gotten a buyer for the house, he signs the contract tommorrow.
I'm upset, but not as upset as my Sister is, you see, since Mum died I've only been out there three times, once just before christmas to wrap up the presents that Mum had managed to buy before she got so sick, once to scatter Mum's ashes on top of the hill, and to clean out her wardrobe, and once in about may 2000, so as you see it's been nearly 2 years since I was out there.
However my Sister has been out there a lot, she helped Dad get the house ready for the real estate agent, and she's going to be there to help him get all the stuff he wants to keep together, and the reason I haven't been out there, well aside from not getting on that well with dad, due to the things he's done, my sister is more forgiving than me.
It's just not the same, my heart breaks each time I go near the house, because I expect Mum to be there, and when I walk in the door, she's not and I just can't handle it.
Even after all this time.
However I suspect that I will have to pull myself together, because there are some things of Mums that I want from the house, and I'm not going to let him just give them away to that bunch of no hopers and hangers ons that he calls friends, or throw them away.
He's already burnt Mums photos allbums, he's not going to do that to me again.
I'm upset, but not as upset as my Sister is, you see, since Mum died I've only been out there three times, once just before christmas to wrap up the presents that Mum had managed to buy before she got so sick, once to scatter Mum's ashes on top of the hill, and to clean out her wardrobe, and once in about may 2000, so as you see it's been nearly 2 years since I was out there.
However my Sister has been out there a lot, she helped Dad get the house ready for the real estate agent, and she's going to be there to help him get all the stuff he wants to keep together, and the reason I haven't been out there, well aside from not getting on that well with dad, due to the things he's done, my sister is more forgiving than me.
It's just not the same, my heart breaks each time I go near the house, because I expect Mum to be there, and when I walk in the door, she's not and I just can't handle it.
Even after all this time.
However I suspect that I will have to pull myself together, because there are some things of Mums that I want from the house, and I'm not going to let him just give them away to that bunch of no hopers and hangers ons that he calls friends, or throw them away.
He's already burnt Mums photos allbums, he's not going to do that to me again.
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